TheCyberWriter

I realize there are going to be many posts on here in the upcoming days about 2007. I promise not to write a grocery list about the stupid shit I say I will do in 2007, only to forget it all by January 15th LOL...I don't know about you all, but I can certainly say I'm ready for this year to be over with. You just have no idea...My life isn't hard or anything, but seriously, I spent pretty much HALF of this year wallowing in misery - some of which was no fault of my own. I am so ready for a new, clean slate...you know? I don't know if you all believe in miracles or not, but I think I experienced on in 2006. Here is what I mean.....this was towards the past part of July and I was so ready for a change. This one day I was at my old job, sitting in my office with the door closed (which was SO unlike me, btw). I don't know why this one day was different than any other day until that point; I guess you could say I just reached my breaking point. I'm not a deeply religious person, but I was so ready to walk away from God and what little faith I had in me ...I felt like they both had abandoned me. I mean, if they hadn't, why was I going through so much hell??...Ok...so here I am at work with my office door shut and I'm in tears :-( I don't know what set me off, but something just made snap and start crying uncontrollably. I looked upwards and said - almost outloud - "Lord please....I need a miracle...I can't do this anymore....I'm afraid of my own thoughts...please, I'm begging you." No more than one minute later, I heard on my desk radio a song that has since then brought me much comfort: "Jesus is Just Alright" by the Doobie Brothers. And I heard this voice and I was like, "I know He hears me and is listening to my prayers." The song made me feel good and I still appreciate it even more these several months later. After I heard the song, I felt in my heart that a change was on the horizon and I wouldn't have to wait much longer for it. A few months later, I decided to walk up the street from my office for a bite to eat. It was then that I realized a convention was taking place in downtown Kansas City. Ever heard of the Gideon's Bible? Well they were having a convention in KC on this particular day. I walked by several of them on my way to lunch but didn't think anything significant would happen. I ate my lunch and proceeded to walk back to my office. It was then that I was approached by a nicely dressed older gentleman and his wife. The man immediately stopped me as I guess he saw something about me was wrong. He asked me if I was ok and I said I wasn't...he then said, "Would you like to pray with me now?" I guess I was a little apprehensive because after all, I was standing on a busy sidewalk in the middle of downtown KC. But there was a part of me that didn't care if people saw me or not, I mean shit, they didn't know what I was going through, you know? As soon as the man approached me, I started crying. He asked me what was on my mind and I just told him quite simply: "I know this might sound a little selfish, but I really need a new job and QUICK." He motioned over to his wife and she came over to where we were standing. They took my hands and bowed with me on the sidewalk...and we prayed. The man said, "Lord you know what is in L's heart...you know her wishes and her desires." And then he said to me after it was over, "He will never lead you astray, L."...Later that day, I received a phone call from the place where I now work - they wanted me to come in for an interview :-) The rest is history LOL Coincidence??...I guess the point I'm trying to make in this post is that I prayed for and got what I believe was a miracle. If 2006 wasn't a good year for you, trust me, it will change. I hope you get the miracle you are praying for...whatever that might be :-) Thanks for stopping by to read my blog...Happy New Year!

"It's the most wonderful time of the year...!!" And the rest of this phrase in my book is "When your supervisor is away, not bugging the shit out of you!" LOL I have now been at my "new" job since the first week of September and since the very beginning, I have really struggled to get along with my supervisor. I wish I could put into words just how much this woman annoys the shit out of me, you guys! LOL I would like to have a dollar for each post where I have mentioned her name LOL She is one of these people who thinks they know EVERYTHING! She even claims to know as much if not more than folks who have been at this place for many years. She talks down to people on the phone. She talks down to ME...she talks down to the other people in our area. She just has this amazing ability to make you feel like such a jackass sometimes! LOL I swear to you all, I have never worked with someone so condescending - EVER!! GAWD...she annoys me!!....She was off on an extended holiday today as well as tomorrow. Needless to say it was nice and quiet LOL It's pretty sad when you have your best days when your supervisor isn't around :-( LOL OK....I am making myself a New Years resolution: NO more blogs about the wicked supervisor!!! LOL :-)

Howdy fellow bloggers!!...I think I have written about this before, but about 3-1/2 years ago, a lady I worked with at my old job died unexpectedly. She left behind a then 18 year old son and 29 year old daughter. Her daughter is married and at that time, was trying to have a baby with her husband. I would visit with J about this at work and I just know she was looking forward to becoming a grandmother. Then she had to leave...leaving many devastated friends and family behind. Well over the years since she died, I have stayed in touch with her daughter; we mostly just exchange emails and Christmas cards, but I still make a point of staying in contact with her...Over the years, I think of J often and wonder what she would have been up to if she were still alive. I guess you can call this thinking about the "might have been's."...Well I came home from work tonight to a small handful of Christmas cards. One of which came from J's daughter, which I was really happy to receive. I also happened to see another card from her that didn't appear to be a Christmas card. Quite the contrary!! I peeled open the small envelope to find a birth announcement on the inside, including a picture of the cutest baby boy :-) Benjamin James, born October 12th :-) I was so excited and happy for Staci and Kevin as I knew they would make great parents, plus the fact that they had to wait so long for this baby to get here! And at the same time, I couldn't help but feel sad...sad that J had to leave before she could see him be born :-( I guess it also reminded me of just how much I still miss my friend :-( Now I'm a spiritual person and I totally believe in the afterlife...I know J was spiritually there to witness the birth of little Ben, but I know her physical presence would have been even better. I'm going to call little Ben a Christmas miracle :-) Hope you all have many miracles of your own to celebrate not just this holiday season, but everyday :-)

Hi bloggers!...It has been forever since I last wrote, but I haven't had much to write about. Plus it's 2 weeks until Christmas, so I have just been busy working and doing some shopping, lol....I had my phone interview for the job in San Diego a couple of weeks ago but I haven't heard any news. So that means that either: a) I didn't get the job, or b) I got the job and they are dragging their feet on letting me know about it, lol....Seriously though I doubt I got the job but I really am ok with that. I haven't been losing sleep over it, that's for sure....So that's about the only "news" I have with regard to how it went, lol....Well I think I'm going to run for now. Sorry this is so brief but I really don't have much to write about, lol....Talk to you all later!!